feel blue in the new year

today is jan 3 2007, the first day of this year is not very good, because it is a big snow in toronto, yesterday it is a clear day, but it is too cold, today it is still very cold, the most important thing that makes me feel blue is my car is broken.
this morning I broken my car when I am parking, it will cost me 1000 dollars to fix it, what a big loss for me and my family, both I and my my wife lost our job, the car is broken, what I can do next!!!!
This event drives me mad almost, how to survive in canada is still a big problem for me, I got a very good education in china, but I can't find a good job related with education, i thik it is a big waste for me just to don general labour job.
how to go out of this difficult situation????
I think the first thing is clear my target, no target, no path!
second insprite myself, think about the difficulty i have passed during my past old days which lead my family immigrated to canada, I can't addimit that I already lost my whole life. there are a lot of people care about me, I have no right to obey the pressure from the current life, my dear teacher, Ms Yuan, Mr Sui, My family member, my sisters, my good friends, Mr Y J W, Mr TW, so many friends waiting my good news, I have to go, To Go!!!
what to do???
the tasks facing me in the near future
1, look for a good job
2 write research papers
3 contact with Ms Yu and Mr Li for postdoc
4 search the postdoc positions from now.
5 continue to search job